*written the day of the proposal*

It was a beautiful day in April, just the right kind of day he thought as he woke up. He smiled and sat down to his computer, chatting for awhile, then heading to lunch. After lunch he began feeling a bit of the nervousness he knew he would feel all day, by the time he and his friends headed out to the lake he almost felt sick with anticipation. But he was happy, and this is why...

3 years earlier this boy had met a girl on the internet, and his heart was so happy with her that he just had to ask her to be his girlfriend. They lived in the same state after he moved to her college and they came to deeply love each other through thick and thin. There was nothing about her that he didn't love.

And so came April 11, 2009, and this man woke up with so much joy in his heart.

When they got out to the lake he was sad to see it so crowded, he wanted it to be a private moment and special. there were even all these people sitting on the dock where he wanted to ask her, but as time passed and it got colder, and he realized that things would still work out, he felt more calm, though still with butterflies in his stomach.

Then he just decided it was time.

"You wanna go sit on the dock?" he asked.

"Sure," she said. none the wiser.

They walked out on the dock and sat down at the edge of it, watching the sun pass through the clouds and listening to the lapping of the water against the shore. It was very peaceful.

"You know," he began "i love Easter, cause it's all about new life, and new beginnings..."

He didn't feel that was the best way to start it, so he muttered off and she giggled, he wondered if she caught on or not, but he let it go, and continued to stare out at the water.

"Okay, so yeah, I love water," he started again, this time trying to be more personal "when i was child it was the only place i felt graceful, and you, you're very graceful, so water makes me feel close to you, cause i can dance in it like you." She nodded

They continued to talk, but he didn't know how to start, finally as the sun seemed just right and the ring in his pocket burned a hole the size of Texas Justin just did what he does best, asked in simple terms.

"I'm at a loss for words, I don't always know how to say things, and right now is one of them, so I'll just come out and say it, will you marry me?" He pulled the ring out of his pocket and handed it to her, to Zoe.

Her eyes got big and she began to cry, giggling and crying at the same time.

"YES!" she said, half under her breath, but he could understand her. She hugged him tight, crying into his shoulder and he felt more at peace, and more joyful than he had ever in his life.

Even now as he writes this there's still butterflies in his stomach, but it's a good feeling, today the most beautiful woman in the world agreed to marry me, and I couldn't be happier.

yesterday I finally got the forms and title off to the insurance so I should get the check next week in order to pay for my car, then pay my rent for the last two months and have a -little- bit left over.

then it's off to the job hunting again while still working for the Craft Center.

Things is lookin up.

Really, not just about the car, but about life itself.

Great song

"Inches And Failing"

I love Love
I love being in love
I don't care what it does to me

Take these tattered boxes
that used to hold your clothes
Break them down
Build them back up with your bones
All you did was construct a mess
You're good to me when only flesh
You're a memory with nothing to show

When we would take trips
We swore we'd never take pictures
Pictures only prove you can't convince
Now I wish those photographs
could convince you that what we had
would only turn out a negative

well
well
well

If fingertips are relationships
then I could barely carry your weight
If fingers are mistakes
Don't use this one to point the blame
Just sing
sing

I love love
I love being in love
I don't care what it does to me
These pills are fine to pass the time
'til I find my new drug
Then
We'll take our chances
we'll last a month
we'll never speak again

How I love being in love

And don't pick up the line
You're dressed to have a good time
you don't need him, you need to be seen
so someone else can treat you wrong
so you my love can sing this song

I love love
I love being in love
I don't care what it does to me
These pills are fine to pass the time
'til I find my new drug
Then
They'll take advantage
I'll claim that's what I want

To be the new statistic

How I love
How I love
How I love being in love

Take these tattered boxes
That used to hold your clothes
Break them down
Build them back up with your bones
All you did was construct a mess
you're dead to me if love is death
You're a memory with nothing to show

WELL
WELL
WELL

If fingertips are relationships
Then maybe I could use a break
She smiles
She points at me
shes says:
Baby I love how you sing
so just
sing

I love love
I love being in love
I don't care what it does to me
These pills are fine to pass the time
'til I find my new drug
Then
We'll take our chances
we'll rise above
we'll last until the end

How I love
How I love
How I love being in love

- The Format